Saturday, January 19, 2008
A good find: My Shrapnel: Life as a "Poor, Sad, Heroic, Victim of Terror"®
Here's a snip:
...Had I been less lucky, second number three would have found me on the ground, dead. Even the clap as I lost consciousness would have been lost, as I believe that one is only cognizant of it to the extent that there is a beginning and an end-a leaving and a returning. I would have died and never known it. There would have been no goodbyes, no final thoughts of my loved ones, nothing. Everything that was in my mind, all of my loves and hates and hopes and dreams, everything that makes up who is Me, would have been instantly and completely wiped out.
But this is too terrifying and you cannot accept it. You want to believe that, when this happens to you, you will be on notice. You will be able to fight for your life. If you see the terrorist, you can dodge. If you feel the heat of the explosion you can turn away. If you feel the shrapnel entering me, you can declare to yourself: "I will not die" and force the breath in and out of your body. Knowledge is power.
How can you possibly accept a vision of yourself as without power, as powerless? How can you accept a picture of yourself knowing nothing, and having absolutely no option or opportunity to fight? How can you just die, without even realizing that anything hit you. One moment you exist. The next you do not...
[h/t: Judith and The Muqata]
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Thanks for the tip! I have been amazed at the response I am getting. I looked at blogging my story as a sort of last resort--kind of "just do something with this stuff already". But it is turning out to be a simply amazing experience.
Oh--re: Nasrallah (your post from today)--ghoul is a truly fitting word.
Gila
Hi Gila. Please do keep writing. You have an important perspective.